The big push Captain Darling and Superman the Movie

I had given myself a week to progress, succeed and, above all, start bringing home the bacon sufficiently to survive. Now that the reality of the situation has filtered through my rather limp defences I have changed my approach. In fact, my approach has changed on an almost daily basis, shifting with the feedback and market intelligence that flows from the real action taken.

The ability to dedicate 100% of my time to the operation has yielded exponentially increased results but, as I have mentioned before I need to focus on ABC...ALWAYS BE CLOSING.

Next week will prove to be the watershed I am sure. I have all of the support from all of the right people so have no excuse for failure. Looking forward to some additional support from some old friends which can only help and push us forward.

On an other, completely different, subject, what the hell is going with movie remakes? OK, I've mentioned this before and will do so again, this time in a bit more particular fashion.

Why on earth has the film Superman been remade? The fact that the premise is sterile and uninteresting has made no difference to the decision to regurgitate another banal attempt at the ridiculous idea. Consider, an almost omnipotent and indestructible being exists, protecting a small municipal area, hiding his identity with a pair of specs, marvellous. He is made vulnerable only when a small chunk of rock arrives from his home world. What a load of bollocks. A film entitled 'God's lunch hour' would be more acceptable, or 'Buddha gets a Macdonalds'.

Missed Thursday, but here is the Friday and end of week update

A busy week. Two trips to Shepperton studios, Pinewood, to the uninitiated, have pushed Cerberus into the forefront of certain areas of communications support a lot quicker than I anticipated. Also there are a number of interesting partnerships in the pipeline that will, hopefully, give us a chance to move in areas that we didn't expect.

That's the work shit out of the way, dull yet important. My life and approach to life has changed drastically over the past couple of weeks. OK, I have little or no income, but I am a damn sight happier now than I ever was when I was contracting for the idiots at Astrium. I am waking up and feeling so motivated and excited about working in the office with my wife that it's a bit scary. I'm sure that if this continues, and if everything I've seen from the adult film industry is to be believed, then my MILF secretary will keep me busy in ways I cannot imagine.

Contacts and ideas are rocking in at an amazing rate and I have the great opportunity to utilise the expertise of an old mate of mine, if this works we will be moving along a lot quicker next week than this.

Sam is away at the Download festival and even though he is approaching his quarter century (he's not, but it sounds good) I still worry. Be safe buddy!!

We may have to sell all assets, caravan, car, kidneys, but tonight we are here at Solent Breezes calm and in bed, sleeping. Hope for next week is paramount in my heart and I thank all of you who read and care about our situation, you know you are (V and M ;-) and my wife who I could not do without, IS NEIL BENNET STILL DEAD?

More later.

Wednesday and unsure

First of all I would like apologise for the pompous and negative tone of yesterdays post. In particular the bit where I state that I despise those who have not counted coppers to feed their family. That was badly versed; what I meant to portray was that I have a real problem with those who have not lived at the edge of financial ruin.

For today, I would like to thank Pete and Chris, we are not only getting somewhere but, also, our credibility is increasing with every meeting.

I can't say too much about the events today, but, I can say that we have decided to bite the bullet. There is no prize for second place, we need to go ahead and retain our resources in order to sell and be successful without a negative and greedy approach to the market. This we can do and we will, tomorrow.

I am still in the shit with the tax man, but, as I have now decided to wind up my consultancy company and focus on the services company, the way forward seems clearer.

South Africa remains on the radar, get well Mister M.

Tuesday and some thoughts on time etc.

We live in a blip in the geological calendar. I've said this before but will go through it again for the stragglers.

Our species has grown from a massive downturn in the numbers of humanity around the end of the last ice-age. We have recovered and multiplied like a plague, or indeed a virus. The last cull was likely to have been caused by an unknown geological event, as have all major extinctions, exterminations and extinguishment of dominant species for as long as we can be bothered to look back in time, with the evidence available to us. My point is that we are well overdue for, even a mediumly impactive geological event, another volcano, earthquake or landslip tsunami will happen, but when? That is even ignoring extra-terrestrial influences such as meteor strikes, comet interaction or solar flares.

Our race has evolved and grown, in a distilled fashion, only over the past couple of hundred years. We ignore trends, history and likely events at our peril, yet we stress about tax, money and independent financial gain as though they are the most important elements in our lives. A wise old man once said to me that when those who have experienced an out of body experience and returned to a 'normal' life have not only spoken of a 'bright light' but also of a feeling of judgement. The judgement was based, almost exclusively, on two questions:

1. What have you learned?
2. How have you enriched the lives of others?

There are worse ways, and rules to live your life by, but inconsideration, selfishness and lack of empathy are all too prevalent in too many people.

Blimey, that took more words than I anticipated, never mind, get to the point Johnny.

My relationship with HMRC is souring rapidly and likely to cause a few break up problems, pretty soon actually. Time, the subject of the blog, is the key here. Many, many breakthroughs and opportunities today, some too sensitive to mention, but they will take time. I can only hope; hope and keep pushing, trying and remaining positive, until there is no way forward.

A final note for today and one which I know will upset some. I despise those who have never striven, aspired or given all for their dreams. I despise those who live off the success of others. I despise those who have never counted coppers to feed their family. I despise those who have not put themselves second or even last. And above all I despise those who ignore those close to them because it is inconvenient or difficult.

Belief never dies (thanks Em)

It's been a rather bizarre day, as mentioned on my Facebook post.

As time progresses certain dates in time begin to hold a greater significance. Consider, we have a finite tie to live and pack as much into our busy lives as we can. With this in mind; we only have so many days within which to fit these memories.

It does seem , however, that certain dates hold more significance than others. Today, for example, continues to attract emotion and gravitas. Initially my dad's birthday and through that an introduction to the tragedy at Oradour-Sur-Glane:

http://youtu.be/NbHjVxzoKKQ

Some time later though my mother died, following a long battle against a particularly aggressive brain tumour, on the same day.

As you can see, today, 10th June, began to take on a rather negative aspect so I can only hope that the news today for opportunities tomorrow, can change this.

Miss you mum...you're the first person Ems and I would always call with any life changing news.

Fear and Being Human being shit!!

Last night I awoke, well it was early this morning, at between three and four and experienced a feeling that I would prefer to forget. I worried. I awoke and spent over and hour worrying about the financial implications of my current situation. This is something I have done before and now understand the futility of the emotional stress and strain of doing so. Yet, I did this. I know that I am in a rather peculiarly difficult situation, but, by the same token, I am also in a rather peculiarly positive position also. Anyway, I lay awake for over an over worrying and stressing before I remembered that this approach is so counter productive as to be the worst approach to adopt. So I sighed and returned to sleep.

Now, hours later I see the sense, I see the way forward. This has been tempered with a positive call from Marko informing me that there is an immediate opportunity with our Angolan prospect. Time is a bitch...

I am currently selling personal assets in order to remain afloat, yet, such lucrative business opportunities present themselves.

On a completely different note, I was so disappointed at the conclusion of the BBC series 'Being Human' which I finally managed to get round to seeing last night.

What a continuity 'k up. The whole series was based on the fact that the devil was trapped in a manky old body for 100 years. Yet when the shit hit the fan, a sniper's laser assist appeared, the devil managed to leave his prison immediately. He then inhabited the murderer and left when the ritual was performed, only to re-inhabit the same body.

What a load of shit. Get a real writer, and a real editor!!!

Friday and the end of a busy week

I'm not sure what I expected to get out of my first week working directly for Cerberus without the safety net of the Skynet 5 project. It's a rather strange feeling; on the one hand I need the income but on the other without the time to spend to create and maintain momentum Cerberus would just plod along and do nothing, make no sales and remain nothing more than merely a great idea.

Five days full time on the case has yielded a great many contacts, interesting people all, there is a massive appetite for cost effective satellite solutions across many markets, CCTV, webcasting, and unified communications amongst those.

I must admit I was despairing on Tuesday but after a couple of days with a 'nothing to lose' approach the Cerberus contacts folder is a lot healthier with many successful and interested parties.

I need another week to keep this running at the current speed and keep thinking 'ABC', 'Always BE Closing' aside from the poor grammar it's a firm sentiment.

The other motivating factor to make Cerberus successful is the fact that I have spent more time at home in the mornings and evenings and there is no way that I want to watch Disney Channel or Jeremy Kyle any longer, I don't have the emotional strength to deal what either.

It appears that we will have to sell our caravan in Warsash, but I guess we knew this would happen one day. I just hope that something changes before i have to sell the children.

Upshot - looking good but still no cigar.