New paragraph to emphasise shock and change of emotion!!
And another. Sam and Bill have diligently, I use the word relative to their normal approach of course, been seeking employment. Bill, so far, has scored more with two days in a terrible sales job that have mentioned in previous posts, and is still sending out applications when he remembers. Sam, on the other hand, has a more specific approach to job-hunting. If he had lived a few tens of thousand years ago and was relying on his method to catch and kill food, he would have spent a few weeks lying in his cave, on a pile of animal skins, awaiting the KFC monster to present its carcass and, in all honesty, slowly and sleepily starved to death. But then, to my admiration and surprise, the one very well thought out and presented application to the local ASDA yielded a result. He was invited to an open day and interview next week...(say slowly) when-we-were-on-holiday!!
I, more than anyone I guess, see that without his first sojourn into the real world Sam would spiral into apathy, lethargy and a whole host of words ending in 'y'. Emma was, as usual, pragmatic, suggesting that this was more important than his presence at our ceremony. I agreed, but, annoying though he is, I am going to miss him.Nearly as much as when I watched his tiny body, clad in a thick, white baby duvet-jacket, and held up by Emma on the esplanade (?) wall at Millbay as I sailed off to the West Indies weeks after his birth. Standing at-ease in full dress uniform I watched as the tiny speck that was my first child was lost to view and we drifted through the gap in the sea-wall that separated The Sound from the English Channel. I doubt that Sam will ever understand that feeling but it is something that will never leave me.
Anyway...at the caravan tonight with dad. A few pints and a casserole, simple pleasures but pleasures none the less.
I can't wait to marry you again - thank you for making it happen... but like you I will miss My Little Big Man, but at least he's with Tom and going for interviews - WHOOP! xxx
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